fourth note

i might hate myself a little bit even now. sometimes i cannot stand the way i look or talk. i hate the sound of my voice, my face, my body, i hate being ME. i cannot erase everything i am. i cannot make people forget about me (do i want to being forgotten anyways?) and starting again. i just hate it so much. i hate hurting people the minimum way possible even if its something you cant really control. i hate being perceived as something i am not. im done with the conversation. i feel so so so so so stupid. can i start over again? can i delete all my memories, even the good ones? i promise being a good child. im sorry im sorry im sorry